It was a gorgeous, muggy morning at the 2nd Annual Nancy's Butterfly Fund Fun Run. Nan would have loved the 5K course through the woods...I enjoyed it but did have to walk a bit more than I usually do. I think the fact I got up at 5:00 AM to get ready for the run didn't help. Thank goodness it was non-competitive! :)
Now that the Run is over, I feel I can really let myself feel the loss and grief that accompanies this time period. I miss her often, of course, but right around now I'm fully into "two years ago today..." thoughts, and it's been hard to set those aside for the sake of the Fund.
In an interview today, one of the questions I was asked (not aired) was "if you could talk to Nancy today, what would you tell her?" I laughed and responded that I talk to her all the time! I must have sounded a bit crazy, but she is a beautiful presence in my life. I feel blessed to have known her as long as I did.
What I would say, what I do say, is "I love you, Nancy. I miss you. Thank you for being my friend."